bulletproof

Scared to realise that this happiness is not as foolproof as I thought it was. Not as bulletproof as I thought. Moments in my days where I feel that anxiety caught up in my throat again, and I don’t even know why. So scared to admit that I might not be so good at looking after myself after all.

Some days I need to stop & remind myself that I am actually good at taking care of myself, because some days I feel exactly the opposite - I feel that I don't know what to do & I don't know how to look after the me in my life at all. So these pots of tea are a small way for me to stop, to make me think for a while that I know how to keep me happy no matter what.

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tuesday tip #1: drink water in the morning

I don't know why, but I've never really been able to easily accomplish the simple act of drinking a glass of water in the morning. My body doesn't like it. She wriggles and squirms and makes a lot of loud excuses, and she used to get away with it.

Now, however, I have a stratagem to trick my dear body into drinking a glass of water in the morning. The night before I place a glass of water on my bedside table, then first thing in the morning, as soon as I've opened my eyes, I reach for this glass and drink it while my body is still sleepy enough not to protest. By the time my body starts thinking "oh dear, this water feels gross and tastes horrible" it makes no difference because I've already drunk the whole glass and there's nothing she can do about it.

How very sneaky of me to outwit my body in such a manner.

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